I quit playing music for a while - about 6 or 7 years. I felt like music was doing nothing for me. It caused me nothing but pain and heartache. Like I wasn't "getting" what I thought I wanted from it. Nobody was listening. And I thought no one cared, and it just didn’t matter. Plus I needed to make a living - and waitressing wasn’t exactly the

I quit playing music for a while - about 6 or 7 years. I felt like music was doing nothing for me. It caused me nothing but pain and heartache. Like I wasn't "getting" what I thought I wanted from it. Nobody was listening. And I thought no one cared, and it just didn’t matter. Plus I needed to make a living - and waitressing wasn’t exactly the stellar fall-back career choice. 
Some years later I had a friend who was told she had stage 4 breast cancer. All the sudden I felt like my reasons for not playing music anymore were really lame. I started feeling like, whether anyone is listening or if anyone cares about my music should be of no concern to me. What other people like or care about has nothing to do with me. I needed to stop expecting some sort of "return" from music as if it owed me something. And just write songs because I like it, because I have a need to, because it kinda heals me. It feels really good to make a song. I mean, to create something from nothing is kind of a miracle. 
So I turned all those feelings into this song. I sort of look at this one like my first song back to music after a long hiatus. (Oh, and that's Joy Hall singing that beautiful high soprano at the end!)